Kung Ang Diyos Nga Marunong Magpatawad, Tao Pa Kaya?

I tell you, I must've already heard this aspect a million times...and well, yes, I do agree to a certain point na bakit nga ba hindi or as to why us, people, are so unlikely to forgive and forget easily sa nagawang kasalanan ng iba sa atin, samantalang ang Diyos na perpekto ay kaydaling magpatawad.... It makes you think nga eh diba? Kase ha, we all know He's the epitome of perfection; He's divine and wonderful in every way, and yet He knows how to forgive. But I guess that's just it, TAO nga lang kase tayo, we're no holy saint or GOD na napakabuti at walang bahid na dumi sa isipan at kabuuang may busilak na puso....

Pero teka, eto na naman ako, binabaybay ang isang paksang may kalaliman ang direks'yon. Naku, sens'ya na nga ha. Let's just say, na-inspired lang ako sa sulat ng isang kaibigan ko sa akin, where in it, my friend was expressing 'yong deep concern n'ya sa standpoint ng forgiveness sa mundo (specifically sa buhay-mundo n'ya). Meron kase s'yang hindi matanggap or mapatawad na tao eh...to a point na medyo feeling vindictive pa kaibigan ko; justifying 'yong actions n'ya in the knowledge na kahit nga daw ang Diyos ay may hangganan ang pagpapatawad. Hanggang labinpu't pito nga lang daw to be exact (hmmm).

OK, normally, I wouldn't disclose what was said sa akin in a letter kase I consider it very private and personal (kaya I wouldn't mention any name nor am I going to eleborate sa k'wento ng friend ko. 'Yong sagot ko na lang, pretty much, sa sulat n'ya ang i-sh-share ko), unless lang it's so significant that I think it should be shared sa kung sino man makabasa nito na maaaring feeling the same way as my friend does. So sana makatulong din ito to open your eyes and heart, and from there, tanggalin ang galit sa puso....

It's in fact an interesting subject what my friend raised here; in my friend's opinion: "Forgiving someone defends on the situation and magnitude of his/her guilt." (and this is where it followed:) "I just can't stop being mad @ this person...but hey, even God stops forgiving at a certain extent (up to seventy seven times, it said so in the bible)...what more can you expect from me? I'm only human...." Quite disturbing words, I know...and well, here is my answer to my friend's letter:

Dear friend,

In the bible, it was, in fact, stated that you must love and forgive your enemies or those who have sinned against you. This came about when He was teaching His disciples about forgiveness on special and many occasions, like the ensuing event: "Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, 'Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?' Jesus answered, ‘I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times,' " (Mt 18:21-22). That's it, verbatim. But my friend, make no mistake, He only phrased it that way (ten times what someone is willing to bestow forgiveness on his brother) so that we (can easily remember) get the point. You must know, deep in your heart @ the very core, that God didn’t mean this in a literal way. He wasn’t specifying a measurable limitation on forgiveness of sins, but to merely emphasize to forgive as many times as needed, as it should, if someone is truly repenting.... When you think about it, if that’s the case, then where is the truth in 1 Cor 13:1-13 where it says "Love does not keep a record of wrongs"? You know what I mean? Exactly; it’ll be a contradiction, otherwise. Because the truth of the matter is, God’s love (as depicted in 1 Cor. 13:1-13) is unwavering; it never falters; it never fails. So you cannot use the excuse to tell someone, "oh you've sinned seventy seven times already, that’s it, you’re out, no can do, you cannot be forgiven, ever again!"

Moreover, it is also written in the holy bible, that the only time he will not forgive us is if we can’t forgive those who’ve sinned against us. He doesn’t want us to hate anyone because it’s not for the benefit of love, for God is love. We’re all here on this planet for something, and that is to learn for love and spiritual growth, so when we die (on our graduation day, as some people call it) we’ve gained so much positive and deep, insightful wisdom.

I have heard, that we must choose to forgive, regardless of the seriousness of the sin against us. It's significantly important to Him as it was stated in Matthew 6:14-15, "For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins."

Having said that, alam mo, it’s not necessarily right, pero it’s perfectly normal to feel the way that you do sa ________ mo. Like I said earlier, tao ka lang kase, hindi si Cristo (Si Cristo na walang hindi kayang patawarin basta’t alam n’yang taimtim sa taong ‘yon ang pagsisisi.) Katulad ko, nagagalit din ako; actually, masama din ako magalit, dahil tao lang din ako, hindi nga katulad ni Cristo. BUT there's one thing, I get over it--I don’t hold a grudge for a long period of time--kase I just don’t see the point. Biruin mo, magagalit ka, itatanim mo ‘yon sa isipan at puso mo, alam mo ba who’s affected most? That’s right, it’s you. You’re only stressing yourself out, and ‘yong taong kinagagalitan mo, walang nararamdaman ‘yon. He could care less about how you feel (or baka natutuwa pa), pero ikaw naman, you’re so stressed out, which isn’t good talaga for your health (lalo na marami ka nang problemang hinaharap na iba; you simply don’t need an extra load of crap to carry on your shoulder). Kaya in the long run, ikaw lang nagdudusa. So why give them the satisfaction in any way? Just take it easy. H’wag mong masyadong dibdibin s’ya o sino mang katulad n’ya; hayaan mo na lang. Tandaan mo, hindi natutulog ang D’yos, pagpapalain ka n'ya. Sabi pa nga diba, "Blessed are the meek for they will inherit the land."

BTW, I’m saying all this hindi para magdunung-dunungan (jut like most people, isa lang din ako sa maraming tanong sa buhay, lalo na sa relihiyon, kung kaya’t mahilig din magbasa ng mga librong pang spiritual) kundi para ipaalam din sa’yo that it’s OK if you cannot accept pa _________ but at least (and God will understand it more kung), h’wag ka na lang magtatanim ng galit sa kanya o kanino man. Learn to let go; you don’t realize this but it’s holding you back. It’s extra added turmoil lang sa buhay mo ‘yon; a negative vibe that attracts negativity din sa buhay mo. You said what you had to say to _________ noon; you got your message across. Tama na ‘yon. Hayaan mo na lang sila. Basta ikaw, isipin mo kung ano ang mas makakabuti para sa’yo, sa emotional and mental health, not to mention sa physical na din. Alam mo bang dito sa America, #1 killer ang stress? Totoo ‘yan, maniwala ka.

And forgiveness, my friend, is a state of the heart; it's powerful and it heals....

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Note: Am sharing this with you, because, let’s face it, we all can learn from each other naman talaga eh, and walang masama kung tayo’y magpalitanan ng point of view or give a glimpse ika nga sa perspective ng bawat isa o ng iba, para kung may na missed or na overlooked tayo, well then, we are given the chance to examine ‘yon (mga) bagay that was (were) brought to our attention, and draw our conclusion from there, that can only help strengthen our beliefs. So thank you for letting me voice my opinion! Muahhuggz and labs! Stay well! TTYL!

Ang Aking A Ba Ka.... My A B C....

OK, I'll have to say, I really enjoyed my last blog, and I wanted to say thank you for letting me express myself through poetry/writing sa tagalog and sa iba pa. Hehe.

And I noticed lang din here where I'm at or sa mga friends ko online, almost everyone says or implied that "my Tagalog is deep and complex, and that it's sometimes hard for them to follow" (really? lol)...well, you know, I like it better this way; it gives it more flavor, an anagogic or mystical effect, so to speak. Hehe. And well, to better understand my being so poetic and intensive (nax, lol) in this language, let's go back a little in time--here's a "Once upon a time" story that live/d happily "Taglish" ever after.

Though born and raised in Manila, I spent most of my summer vacations in the countryside of Nasugbu, Batangas (a province somewhere in Luzon), and was also privileged enough to be raised by this fine, gentle and conservative spinster who was one of my great grandmother's siblings, who we also called "Lola" (that's "grandma" in English). Though the proper term would've been "grandaunt" we fondly call her "Grandmother" nonetheless--that's just the way we (Filipinos) refer to our relatives who are seniors y'see; it gives us a sense of a more profound, and loving relationship with them in this way...and we take great pride in doing so, may I add.

Anyway, to further the story; Batangas (like Cavite and Bulacan) as you know is deep-rooted in Tagalog with a distinct accent that starts out (or somewhere along the line) with "Ala e" or "Aba e" pretty much whenever making a statement, replying or asking a question in a sentence (haha, this is killing me, but it feels so damn good reminiscing here. ).

Both my great grandparents and their siblings were very conservative.... Not only did it show with the design of their dwellings and furnishings, they wore those antiquated clothings pretty much on a daily basis. And it's apparent that the words they used (lol) came from an ancient chest, as well! Having said that, it's pretty obvious it's where I learned it from.

Well now you know the story behind it. Hope that helps clear out a few things.

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Example of the way my (great) grandparents would say about a few things:

-Hindi ko gustong napagkikita kang nagsasasama sa mga mahalipaparot na mga babaeng 'yon, puro walang modo! Aba e, akala mo'y mauubusan ng mga lalaki... pagkakakiri't makakati!

(I don't want to see you hanging out with those nasty women [nyahaha], they have no manners! They act as if they're going to run out of available men...What sluts!)

And here's the simplified version:

-Ayokong nakikita kang sumama sa mga malalanding babaeng 'yon, parang walang pinag-aralan. Akala mo mauubusan ng mga lalaki. Malalandi!

(same as the above translation)
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...and here are a few more funny words, (phrases/words compounded in a sentence) I can think of.

"Pumarito (pumarine) ka" instead of "Halika dito" -- "Come here."
"Pumanaog ka sa lupa" instead of "Bumaba ka dito"--"Come down here" (from the second floor).
"Didibdiban kita" instead of "susuntukin kita"--"I'll punch you"
"Bug-on" instead of "Baon"--"Viand"
"Daldakina" instead of "Madaldal"--"Talkative"
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I still remember like it was only yesterday, I used to hide under her long skirt whenever great grandpa gets upset with me over something.... Haha, I was resourceful, I know! Well, it's either that or some spanking, I didn't have much choice, did I? Hehe--it was just this old man's way to discipline us, children. To this day I still don't really agree with it per se, but it sure gave us something to be afraid of whenever we felt the need to be "bad to the bone." Tsk tsk, what a way to bring us under control huh, instilling fear in our innocent little mind.

And to think he was a swordsmith, and known for his courage and strength...I mean, who wouldn't be scared of him, then? It was going around too that he was a "white-eyed hunter," who carried a mystical power of some sort (through swallowing an extraordinary stone that possessed powers, I heard?). Hahaha, I remember, when great grandfather was very ill, my uncle waited many nights sitting by his bedside, hoping that one day soon (then), to receive the so-called "magical gem." And then one evening, at first it seemed that all came to fruition for my uncle, my great grandpa finally coughed up what he thought was the stone/gem he so desperately wanted and wished for so long to inherit...so he immediately grabbed it...but as it turned out, it was false alarm...it was just sheer phlegm (ewwww, grossss!). Evidently, it had no magic whatsoever! Bwahahaha! Oh how pissed my uncle was, I tell you!

Haha, "how gullible" one might say, but it's true, to this day some (or many?) Filipinos still believe in this type of paranormal stuff.... Hehe.

Adios muna mga kaibigan, until next time! Take care and God bless! TTYL! Muahhuggzzz.

(A comic strip of how my great grandmother dressed-like back then was from Gerry Alanguilan Official website: Nestor Redondo Art Gallery--CRAF Publications)

Tagalog Poems, Yeah, ilang Tula ni Makatang Kurdapia!

Indulge me pleaseee (haha); for some reason I'm into Tagalog/Pilipino poetry lately (or has it been for always? Whatever! Nyahaha). But hey, it's just for fun, playing with words that is...lol. Saka diba sabi pa ni Gat Jose Rizal...ang hindi raw mag mahal sa sariling wika ay higit pa ang amoy sa malansang isda...o, diba naman? Kaya tangkilin ang sariling atin, kahit paminsan-minsan man lang! Hehe. ~@~@~@~ isang kaylalim ng pinagsamahan hindi basta kayang talikuran labis na emos'yon ang nalulukob na ito'y nahahalintulad halos sa seryoso't dumaragundong na kulog at bilis ng kiglat gumuguhit sa maawaing langit mga alon ring walang patid sa dalampasiga'y humahalik habang ang hangi'y umiihip sabay sa buhos ng saganang ulan sa nagririkit na apoy ay kaylupit mga ibon, isda, tao, hayop, halaman, mga iba pa't libliban s'yang ang mundong puno nito mga katu-tuwang kababalaghan ang s'yang tanging silungan sa kalawakan nitong taglay nagsisilbi ring tagapagmulat sa isang alipin ng puso't isipan kaya't sa muli't muli pa may nakikitang pag-asa sa kanyang munting buhay M.D./Straw 2006 Kanina. may ginagaya ako...pero di ko lang alam kong si Tita Shawi, or Si Ate Vi, or si Alice D. eh, pero one thing for sure isa sa kanila; either sa Palmolive or Lux soap na patalastas (lol), 'yong may hawak na dahon. 'Yong unang dahon nga do'n, tuyong-tuyo, so noong tinikom 'yong palad ng isa sa mga nabanggit kong Phenomenal Women (hehe) ay nadurog s'ya, halos maging abo...pero pangalawa, noong hinalimusan ng sabon (hinayaang masabon-sabon pa din 'yong dahon in the end, hehe), aba, buong-buo pa din...so 'yon, like I said, bago ako naghilamos, ginaya ko muna...kase nakita ko 'yong halaman ko sa banyo, nalaglagan ng ilang dahon eh, so haha, napag-trip-pan ko lang gayahan; sayang naman 'yong dahon o pagkakataon kung hindi o, lol, I know I can be so silly sometimes. Nakakatuwa, or naloloka na lang talaga ako? Speaking of Phenomenal Women though, I just love Maya Angelou's Phenomenal Woman (she dedicated it to Oprah I believe); I thought I'd post it here, and so here it goes: Phenomenal Woman By Maya Angelou Pretty women wonder where my secret lies. I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size But when I start to tell them, They think I'm telling lies. I say, It's in the reach of my arms The span of my hips, The stride of my step, The curl of my lips. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. I walk into a room Just as cool as you please, And to a man, The fellows stand or Fall down on their knees. Then they swarm around me, A hive of honey bees. I say, It's the fire in my eyes, And the flash of my teeth, The swing in my waist, And the joy in my feet. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. Men themselves have wondered What they see in me. They try so much But they can't touch My inner mystery. When I try to show them, They say they still can't see. I say, It's in the arch of my back, The sun of my smile, The ride of my breasts, The grace of my style. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. Now you understand Just why my head's not bowed. I don't shout or jump about Or have to talk real loud. When you see me passing It ought to make you proud. I say, It's in the click of my heels, The bend of my hair, The palm of my hand, The need for my care, 'Cause I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me. © Maya Angelou, 1978 OK diba? Maganda. She's great. Newayz, gtg for now, 'yon lang makuk'wento ko eh, nag-iisip pa ng iba. TTYL! Ciao for now!

Slambook -- Questions and Answers Session.

I received an e-mail containing a series of questions that corresponds to a slambook (parang noong nasa grade/high school pa tayo, hehe, nakakatuwa, kaya 'yon sinagutan ko) that I was supposed to answer and mail back to the sender. Well, I did just that and I decided to post it here nga as well, for my own (and your) viewing and enjoyment (na din). The first three questions were pretty revealing, and well, I'm not including them in order to remain anonymous (yeah right, haha). Hope you understand. Hehe. So, let's commence: 4. Fav. Movie Many--I love action, horror and funny flicks; occasional drama is good too! There are so many good movies out there, but here's a list of the can think of at the moment that are my favorites or those I wouldn't mind watching twice (probably already have) or more: Troy, Gladiator, Lord of the rings, The Bourne Supremacy, Pirates of the Caribbean, Incredible Hulk, Hellboy, Xmen, Rockstar, Sid Vicious, Lords of Dogtown, Robots, Antz, Mars Attacks, Bill & Ted's Bogus Journey & the Excellent Adventure, I-spy. Austin Powers, Doom, Tales from the crypt "Demon Knight", Demons, Dawn of the living dead, Evil dead 1-2 (haha, it was comical, it made me laugh!) Van helsing (Besides action...I love horror flicks as well! Hehe.) Wayne's World 1-2, E.T., Shrek, Team America (World police), The incredibles. & on drama - Tears of the sun, Black Hawk Down, Saving Private Ryan, Artificial Intelligence, The Perfect Storm, Somewhere in time, Ghost, Titanic, Diary of a mad black woman, War of the Roses, The Graduate, White Squall, and Gone with the wind (senti minsan eh, hehe.) and Clint Eastwood's movies, as well... si idol eh! 5. Fav. Songs (A) Music-all time Favorite Artists/Bands (B) (A) My favorite songs at the moment are "Champagne Supernova" and "Wonderwall" by Oasis. *Also, the song "The things that I remember are the things I did with you" by Ernie and Bert of Sesame Street! Haha, it's so cute...it surely does remind me of all my childhood friends. (B) Some Mellow, Alternative, Rock --U2, The Smiths, The Clash, Twisted Sisters, Deep Purple, Skid Row, Poison, Nirvana, Warrant, Ramones, REM, Pink Floyd and more. 6. What hobbies do you have? Engaging in some Sweet Reverie, Read (and collect books), Art, Poetry, Prose, Sing a little, Dance a little, Music/Writing songs and short stories. And hey...let's not forget dining and hanging out with my closest friends! 7. Describe yourself. I'm all right--not a bad looking entity or species (hehe) and a pretty nice person, I think--specially when unconscious. 8. Lines about me. What lines, you mean these lines ________ ____________________________________ ____________________________________? (I'm confused @ this one; is it to add or say more things about me? Jeeze, I think we don't need this one answered, with all the questions in this entry, I think I've given enough info about me, so let's skip this one. Hehe.) 9. Some positive points in you. Compassionate, friendly, caring and loving. 10. Some negative points in you. An occasional grouch...an occasional grouch...AN OCCASSIONAL GROUCH!!! Grrrrr. Hehe 11. What else do you do in your free time? Read and ponder about various things, randomly. 12. Your plan in life is to.... Live in harmony and conform with the natural flow of life. 13. The best thing about you. I always try to be a better person everyday...and I tend to look at the glass half-full rather than half-empty. 14. What sports or recreation do you do? I like watching basketball; play racketball, badminton and volleyball. 15. First Crush.... Ha ha, secret. 16. Biggest Crush.... Ha ha ha--that's another secret...except only bigger! 17. Define Love and Friendship? True Love is a commitment--it's enduring.... A great nurturing friendship is what makes it easier to balance everything and all, in life. 18. If you could fly anywhere in the world, where would you go? Can I go to the moon, or will that be considered not part of the world? OK, Australia and Spain, then. 19. Have you ever told someone you loved them but not really meant it? No. 19. Have you ever told someone you hated them but not really meant it? Yes--I was at the end of my rope...didn't really mean it, because I really don't hate. 20. Suggest a website for me to go to. There are many websites to suggest, I'll go over this later. 21. Suggest a TV show for me to watch. I'll list all my favorite shows and those shows I don't mind watching on TV!: Rockstar:INXS, Southpark, Seinfeld (the show about nothing. lol), Chappelle's Show, Girlfriends, Martin, Living color, Saturday Night Live, that 70's show, friends, living single, CSI, Cold Case, Killer Instinct, Without a trace, Bones, Dr. House, Malcolm in the middle, Smallville, Supernatural, Poltergeist (the series), Unexplained Mysteries, nick at nite's I love Lucy, I dream of Genie, Bewitched, Munsters, 227, Good times, Sanford and son, All in the family, and pretty much anything on Scifi. discovery, courtTV channels and Lifetime for women. Oh also, Late show with David Letterman, King of Queens & Will and Grace. (& here's to include the shows my little forced me to watch and ended up liking in the end like--Dragon Ball Z/GT, Inuyasha, Yu-gi-oh, Pokemom, Cardcaptor, Beyblade, Digimon, etc., it keeps me young at heart... ) Tagalog (Philippine shows) Maalaala mo kaya, SOCO, My song, Nginig & Panday. 22. Describe your most embarassing experience. Oh, it'll only embarrass me (again), so forget it. Ha ha! 23. Have you ever skipped school without permission (played video games, etc)? Yes, I have. LOL! 24. Describe your most memorable experience. I'll never forget the day when I first became a parent....--This child completes me, as if it was my first step towards womanhood... ...and I'll never forget the day I fell in love for the first time...it was one of a kind, truly mesmerizing experience.... 25. When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up? Wasn't sure...but definitely, to be someone who helps out others, whatever that may be. 26. If you could instantly change one aspect of your personality, what would it be? My being so introvert turned into being quite assertive but not so being extrovert though. 27.Describe what you feel like waking up on Monday morning. Optimistic. 28. Where do you like to go on dates? Places where bounteouness of nature's beauty are observed. 29. Who do you think should pay for a date? It makes no difference to me; whoever has the money or who offers to...it's all good. 30. If you could go back in time and change something(s), what would it (they) be, and what would you change? Years before my grandmother's untimely demise, to be able to prevent that dreadful event from happening. And a few more things.... 31. Describe what it feels like to be in love. Words cannot adequately convey the very feeling of ecstasy in love. The extremity of such rapturous emotional elation is far beyond saying "excellent to the very meaning of the word...." Because "In all sense of passion, it is, perhaps, the most slendid, priceless gift (besides bearing a child) of a 'glorious heavenly experience' here on earth...presented to us by the Lord above, so devine." 32. Give me one good reason to love you. I have no reason to give (am not selling myself, am I? (hehe); what you see is what you get--take it or leave it! 33. Who would you most like to talk to? My very bestfriend. 34. What inspires you? Life itself.... 35. Describe in one word, LIFE is ............. A challenge--life cycle is filled of trials and experiences for spiritual, love and emotional growth. 36. Favourite Colour? And why? Blue (the colour of the heavens/sky above and the ocean)--it symbolizes tranquility, hope, sincerity, cleanliness, contentment, trust and spirituality.... 36. If your life was to be filmed, which actress would you want to play you? If this question was asked three years ago, I'd say "Angelina Jolie," but today I'll have to say "Charlize Theron." I love her simplicity, and her beauty! (Not that I am pretty, haha, but I'd still like her to play me, hehe). 37. What do you look for in people (for friends)? I dig kindhearted, honest, down-to-earth (genuinely modest), respectful and considerate peeps. Those who love animals & children. Also those friendly individuals with good manners and great sense of humor! And last but not least, those who share my aesthetic interests. 38. Fav. Books? Fire in the soul, Das Energi, Embraced by the light, Your erroneous zones, Men are from Mars...Women are from Venus, Bridges of the Madison County, and For girls 39. Fav. Quotes? The marvelous richness of human experience would lose something of rewarding joy if there were no limitations to overcome. The hilltop hour would not be half so wonderful if there were no dark valleys to traverse. -- Helen Keller The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers. -- M. SCOTT PECK You cannot teach anyone anything. You can only help them to discover it within themselves." -- Galileo "To Err is human, to forgive is devine" -- Alexander Pope. When people shake their heads because we are living in a restless age, ask them how they would like to live in stationary and do without change. -- George Bernard Shaw Live all you can...the right time is any time.... -- Henry James ...and I don't believe in everything I see; you know I'm blind so why do you disagree? -- Oasis Long blog na naman, haha, sorry ha? Hehe, til next time. Ciao for now! Muahhugzzz .

Blog ko, Drama, Atbp....

Blogs ko, drama, atbp.... Out of Kilter http://www.picturetrail.com/philamgirl (Please click above link for Photos). Something bothers me lately... Crab and/or Crawfish mentality, that is! Unfortunately this isn't the first time I heard some people say that this vile characteristic is one great sickness of Filipinos. What's even more sad though, is when a Filipino says it about his own people. That is something I can't quite comprehend. As if it isn't bad enough we are getting blackballed by others, here we have to deal with our own.... Correct me if I'm wrong, but aren't we supposed to love one another; isn't that one of God's most fervent noble wishes (commandments)? Then why act as oppose to it? It's really disappointing to many of us because we see the total opposite of this a lot more these days. For instance, when our kababayans (Fellow Filipinos) tell on those poor TNTS... what's the deal? I don't know any TNTS myself, kung may makilala man ako, aasikasuhin ko 'yong sarili kong business. But then again, we really don't know what prompted or what's driving some (there may be a number of reasons that lead them to do such a thing -- maybe they think they are just being law abiding citizens and doing the society a favor. Buti and I can see if the TNTS ay mga terorista. Iba na 'yon, dapat magkaisa para sugpuin talaga 'yon) to do it, so I really can't judge them. Like I said, some Filipinos don't have the sense of camaraderie, but I still wouldn't stigmatize them in general as "envious people;" and it is unreasonable to say, because of that alone, that Filipinos have this type of dire mentality; it simply isn't true. That leads me to these questions, "how do they know for sure that all or the majority of Filipinos are this way? Where did they draw their general conclusion from?" I'd like to know. Do they just focus on us alone, watching our every move or the words we say, and hence came to a conclusion that this is who and how we really are as Filipinos in whole? Wow, they make it sound as if we're the worst race of people that ever walked on earth. The thing is, most people tend to stereotype, that's true in every race. But just because you heard something from one person about someone doesn't make it all true--it's wrong to make a whole race suffer or pay the price of one particular individual's mistakes or misdeeds. When we judge a man, we alter that person's life, with unpredictable effect...and subsequently, will have to live with that. The truth is, crab or crawfish mentality did not originate from the Philippines. This is not what we represent; or at least not just the Filipinos. It's a universal dilemma since men begun to roam this planet and since the time we were given the capacitiy to feel emotions. So let's stop unpleasantly branding one another, instead, be aware of others' feelings and think of the consequence that can affect each and everyone of us in some ways big and small if we continue to discriminate or ostracize. Rejoice the success of others, specially of those family/relatives and/or friends. Fill your heart with joy, you'll live longer! That's one less you'll worry about. --PleasurezAndPainz A Wise man once said that "envy is the most anti-social and evil of all passions." I recommend this website for a related subject: http://word.crusade.org/word/word496.html Posted By: Heart Speaks Online Sept 05 'Yan na nga ba sinasabi ko eh, kaya pala I was feeling so down, magkakasakit pala ako, eto ako ngayon, may trangkaso, walang ginawa ngayon kundi matulog. Ala din naman akong ganang kumain, kahit pa ano ulam. Ewan ko, ala akong panlasa eh, gano'n ako pag may lagnat o trangkaso minsan e. Kaasar. Pero it doesn't help any din 'yong mag-isip ng kung ano-ano, like kahapon talaga, para akong hilong talilok, matapos mabasa ng ulan pagkagaling namin sa mall. So pinakain ako, kase baka daw sa gutom, I ate, pero gano'n pa din, talagang naduduling ako sa hilo, saka nadodouble tingin ko. So inihiga ko, kahit para akong mag b-blow. Hay. Eto, medyo maigi ng konti ngayon ang aking pakiramdam, kase uminom ako ng gamot, kani-kanina. And I feel so bored, kaya eto, sa harap ng pc, nag tatata-type na naman. Hehe. Anyway, a few days ago, iyong isang kakilala ko, nagkuk'wento tungkol sa kanyang lovelife. Down din s'ya, so sabi ko, buti nga ikaw may lovelife eh, 'yong iba wala. Pero sad daw s'ya eh. Kase sabi n'ya, 'yong guy daw na mahal n'ya, masyado daw reserve...as in hindi daw open sa kanya. 'Yong feelings daw ba, parang patago? Hindi daw tuloy n'ya talaga alam kung ano tunay na nararamdaman no'n. "Ha ha ha," sabi ko, "Welcome to the club, ang sa akin man ay mahirap maunawain, hindi na kase s'ya katulad ng dati, noon na nasasabi n'ya ang lahat sa akin, ngayon ata ay nac-cornihan na s'ya, kaya nga matagal ko na ding hindi nadidinig 'yong gusto kong madinig. 'Yon, corny daw e...ata, so OK lang." Sabi n'ya, "Gano'n ba? Hindi pala ako nag-iisa. Bakit gan'yan ang mga lalaki, feeling nila cool sila pag 'yon hindi sila nas-share sa atin ng kahit na anong intimate thoughts, kahit na nakakasakit sa atin 'yon, dahil we long to hear 'yon eh...something that will definitely makes us happy to hear, kahit paminsan-minsan. Pero para silang walang pakiramdam, pinapalungkot tayo. Cool ba 'yon? It's actually uncool...." Sa sinabi n'ya, naaalala ko tuloy 'yong librong Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus, so sabi ko na lang, "I don't know, your guess is just as good as mine, di ko rin maintindihan eh... I just thought once they realized mahal nila 'yong tao, they shouldn't hide it; they shouldn't be afraid na aminin o sabihin 'yon sa ating mga babae, after all, it's natural; Love is not something to be ashamed of." Sabi nga ni W. Shakespeare "To Thine Own Self Be True, diba?" Naks. Truth be told: Simula ng huli ko s'yang makausap, di na ako mapalagay. Parang na-heightened 'yong alarm eh, na knowing na in the line of work, madami s'yang nakakasalamuhang ibang mga babae, na sigurado (ayaw n'ya lang sabihin sa akin dahil baka magselos ako), magaganda sila at mga bata pa....and sooner or later, makakalimutan na n'ya ako, ipagpapalit sa iba. Honestly, I can't bear the thought, kaya tuloy low ako, in spirits ngayon. Pero sige, OK lang. Whatever makes him happy, ayos na rin sa akin 'yon, di ko magagawang magalit sa kanya, after all, ako din naman may kasalanan talaga eh, kaya ayoko nga ding mangulit, hindi dapat, and if anything, 'yon ang nakakahiya. So lie-low muna ako. So, gano'n na lang muna 'yon. Mga lyrics ng songs na gusto kong napapakinggan lately, nilalagay ko ngayon dito. Ewan, trip lang....Laterz! Jealous By Nina Jealous of the girl who caught your eye One of my darker days When you looked at her where was I? Shoulda been in her place Here I am All alone imagining what could have been If I had been there [Chorus:] Jealous of the one whose arms are around you If she's keeping you satisfied Jealous of the one who finally found you Made your sun and your stars collide La la la la la la la She's a very very lucky girl La la la la la la la Jealous of the one who won your heart They say it's a perfect match She's gonna get to be where you are And I don't get better than that She'll say you're fine Whisper words I wish were mine And they might have been If I had been there [Repeat Chorus] You know I'd fight the good fight If I thought I'd change your mind But if she makes you happy I would leave that dream behind Man, she better treat you right And give you everything Cause at the moment she doesn't I'll be waiting in the wings [Repeat Chorus] La la la la la la la She's a very very lucky girl @@@@@ Just Tell me You Love me By: England Dan And John Ford Coley Many times, I wished you were here, Through the velvet shadows of my dreams Many times, I wished you were near, Through the darkness as it came but it seems That you, you never said what I needed to hear Just tell me you love me, Whisper words I so long to hear Let this time not be borrowed Let it be ours to share, If you tell me you love me It would lead a way to your heart Through the mirrors of silence, you love me Quietly, I've waited, For the memory born of our first kiss Patiently, I've waited, For the moment you would take me to world That I, I've never seen that world before Just tell me you love me Whisper words I so long to hear Let this time not be borrowed Let it be ours to share If you tell me you love me It would lead a way to your heart Through the mirrors of silence, you love me, you love me @@@@@ Ang Huling El Bimbo By: Eraseheads Kamukha mo si Paraluman nung tayo ay bata pa at ang galing-galing mo sumayaw mapabugi man o cha cha ngunit ang pabotrito ay pagsayaw mo ng el bimbo nakakaindak, nakakaaliw nakakatindig balahibo pagkagaling sa esk'wela ay didiretso na sa inyo at buong maghapon ay tinuturuan mo ako (chorus) magkahawak ang ating kamay at walang kamalay-malay na tinuruan mo ang puso ko na umibig ng tunay nanigas ang aking katawan pag-umikot na ang plaka patay sa kembot ng bewang mo at ang pungay ng iyong mga mata lumiliwanag ang buhay habang tayo'y magkaakbay at dahang dahan dumudulas ang kamay ko sa makinis mong braso sana noon pa man ay sinabi na sa iyo kahit hindi na uso ay ito lang ang alam ko (chorus) la la...la la..la la la la la la... lumipas ng maraming taon di na tayo nagkita balita ko'y may anak ka na ngunit walang asawa tagahugas ka raw ng pinggan sa may ermita at 'sang gabi nasagasaan sa isang madilim na eskinita lahat ng pangarap ko'y bigla lang natunaw sa panaginip na lang pala kita maisasayaw (chorus 2x) la la la...la la...la la la la... @@@@@ (Itong isang ito dito, gustong-gusto, may naaalala kase akong tao eh, palagi; it's how I feel.) Ako'y Sa'yo At Ika'y Akin Lamang By: Iaxe/First Circle Ikaw na ang may sabi, na ako'y mahal mo rin At sinabi mong ang pag-ibig mo'y di magbabago Ngunit bakit sa tuwing ako'y lumalapit ika'y lumalayo? Puso'y laging nasasaktan pag may kasama kang iba 'Di ba nila alam, tayo'y nagsumpaan? Na ako'y sa 'yo at ika'y akin lamang Kahit ano'ng mangyari, pag-ibig ko'y sa 'yo pa rin Kahit ano pa ang sabihin nila'y ikaw pa rin Ang mahal, maghihintay ako kahit kailan Kahit na umabot pang ako'y nasa langit na At kung di ka makita, makikiusap ka'y bathala Na ika'y hanapin at sabihin ipaalala sa iyo Ang nakalimutang sumpaan Na ako'y sa 'yo at ika'y akin lamang Umasa kang maghihintay ako kahit kailan Kahit na umabot pang ako'y nasa langit na At kung di ka makita, makikiusap ka'y bathala Na ika'y hanapin at sabihin ipaalala sa iyo Ang nakalimutang sumpaan Na ako'y sa 'yo at ika'y akin lamang.... Sept 03, 2006 Unwell By MatchBox 20 All day staring at the ceiling Making friends with shadows on my wall All night hearing voices telling me That I should get some sleep Because tomorrow might be good for something Hold on Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown And I don't know why [Chorus] But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell I know right now you can't tell But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see A different side of me I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired I know right now you don't care But soon enough you're gonna think of me And how I used to be...me I'm talking to myself in public Dodging glances on the train And I know, I know they've all been talking about me I can hear them whisper And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me Out of all the hours thinking Somehow I've lost my mind [Chorus] But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell I know right now you can't tell But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see A different side of me I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired I know right now you don't care But soon enough you're gonna think of me And how I used to be I've been talking in my sleep Pretty soon they'll come to get me Yeah, they're taking me away [Chorus] But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell I know right now you can't tell But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see A different side of me I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired I know right now you don't care But soon enough you're gonna think of me And how I used to be Yeah, how I used to be How I used to be Well, I'm just a little unwell How I used to be How I used to be I'm just a little unwell @@@@@ Sept 02, 2006 Every once in a while I'd wake feeling this way...depressed, that is. Sure, I can think of many reasons for me to be depressed...but what surprises me is that why I don't always feel depressed (that's a good thing) but hmm, it's weird, I know. But man, when I fall into depression, I tell you, I get into it all too deeply, it sucks.... I woke up pretty early today, but didn't feel like getting up right away. I just laid around all morning, and random thoughts just kept on gnawing--"What's the point (of living), really? Why am I still here? What am I going to do tomorrow when I'm still unhappy? What happens when it never comes? Etc.." Pretty morbid thoughts huh, I know. Certainly, I hate it when I feel this way; it's like everything na lang makes me sad today. Ahhh, there's not much I can do but to let it ride as I calm myself down and remind myself that everything is going to be all right (even though it's pretty hard to shake it). Oh well, it's life. They say, pag may unos, may kapayapaan pagkatapos. Yeah, I think it's true, there's a silver lining for us din naman...so it's all good, I'll be OK. Sorry din dito sa kung sino man makabasa nito. As you know naman, blogging isn't all about happy thoughts. We all (or at least most of us) have intense feelings that sometimes need to be expressed; it helps us cope better with the predicament we're in. So salamat for letting me vent. ---@@@--- Songs of the day. Next In Line by After Image What has life to offer me When I grow old What's there to look forward to beyond the biting cold 'Coz they say it's difficult Yes, stereotypical You gotta be conventional, You can't be so radical Chorus: So I sing this song to all of my age For these are the questions We've got to face For in this cycle that we call life We are the ones who are next in line. Repeat 1st stanza Chorus We are next in line..Oooh...Ohh.. We are next in line.... And we gotta work, we gotta feel, let's open our eyes and do whatever it takes (2x) Wooh..ooh.. Repeat Chorus fade ~@@@~ TAO Sampaguita Tulad ng isang ibon tao ay lumilipad Pangarap ang tanging nais na marating at matupad Isip ay nalilito pag nakakita ng bago Lahat ng bagay sa mundo ay isang malaking tukso Bakit pa luluha Bakit maghihirap Ayaw mang mangyari Ay di masasabi Sasaktan mo lamang Puso ay wag sugatan Ito'y laro lamang Sa mundong makasalanan Tubig ay natutuyo Bulaklak ay nalalanta Araw ay lumilipas sa gabi rin ang punta Tulad ng isang ibon Tao rin ay namamatay Pangarap niyang tanging nais makarating sa kabilang buhay -xoxox- (Para sa lahat ng kabarkada kong mahal. Sayang, kung malapit lang ako sa inyong lahat, whenever you need me, I'll be there sana talaga...but you know naman totoong I will help so long nasa kakayanan ko. So hope you like this song). Tag-Ulan (with Chords) By After Image Intro: D-A-G-(4X) D A G Minsan ika'y nag-iisa walang makasama D A G Di malaman sa'n tutungo D A G naghahanap nag-iisip kung sa'n babaling Bm A G Dito sa mundong mapaglaro Filler: D-Dsus.D.D9.G-; (2x) D A G At tuwing ika'y nalulumbay di makakita D A G Nais mo ay may makasama D A G Sa `yong lungkot akala mo ika'y nag-iisa D A G Narito ako't kapiling ka G A Kung nais mo ika'y lumuha G A G-A Ako'y makikinig sa bawat salita Chorus D G Kapag umuulan bumubuhos ang langit D#/F G Sa `yong mga mata D G Kapag mayroong unos ay aagos ang luha D/F# G (Filler) Ngunit di ka mag iisa kaibigan D A G Kay rami ng mga tanong sa `yong isipan D A G Nais mo lamang ay malaman D A G Bakit nagkaganoon ang nangyari sa `yong buhay Bm A G Tanong mo man sa `ki'y `di ko alam G A Handa akong maging tanggulan G A G-A Sa tuwing sasapit sa `yo ang tag_ulan oh Repeat Chorus except last line Bridge A G Ako'y naririto naghihintay lamang A G sa `yo tumawag ka't ako ay tatakbo sa piling mo D-G- D Kaibigan, kaibigan Repeat Chorus (Filler) Kaibigan. (4x) Posted By: Heart Speaks Online Friday, September 01, 2006 Tribute to my Dear Bess. The following is for one of my finest friends, Bess/Gerly (I miss you) Bess, I'm so sorry, OK? Didn't mean to hurt you, I swear. I know I worry too much, then subsequently finding out that the thing(s)...such as the problem I worried about that involved you was unwarranted. "It" never transpired at all; I know that now and I feel so stupid. But I do recognize when I make mistakes and I'm not at all embarrassed to apologize for them and am pretty quick to correct them when given the chance. I'm not one to let pride come between me and the people I love. For the unnecessary pain I've caused...and for the hurtful things I said--for sort of accusing you and all--I know I can't recant any of it, but I do sincerely apologize. And like I said, I'm more than willing to take all the blame, responsibility and the consequences therefrom. But on a happier note, things had turned out unexpectedly better than I thought it would; the only thing I resent is that the fact that I couldn't spare you the grief that came along in the process. My being neurotic by nature doesn't help matters any, I know. I can be so quirky @ times that's for sure. Please excuse me for my dreadful flaws. But I know one thing for sure, I honestly do love you dear friend, and I care, so much (apparently, it's why I acted the way I did--I got jealous--I thought you traded me for Grace, so....) And yes, I, too, still want this friendship to continue on! Thanks for being so understanding and for weren't all ready to sever our friendship hastily like I was; it just shows, you're a much bigger person than I am...pasens'yosa ka talaga, kaya saludo ako sa'yo eh! We've been through a lot, for many years. Through thick and thin...and I'll never forget the pact we've made. No distance can keep us from staying best of friends! And I want you to know, I'm in this too deeply and all the way; you'll always be my Bess (one of my very few [selected] best friends) for life! And girl, I'm so happy for you and Rey; finally, andito na prince charming mo, (para ngang 'yong sabi sa kanta ng Chicago na "like a knight in shining armor from a long time ago, he'll take you to his castle far away [far away nga, in deed!] hehe!) pero seriously, talaga I like him, mabait s'ya, nakilatis ko na s'ya. Hehe. So kaya, may God bless your union talaga! You two have my blessing (like kailangan? Hahaha). Take care of each other, OK? Muahhhhugggzzzz (Ang sarap din mag gunita ng ating mga alala, babae ka, hehe , nakakatuwa. Ingat din lagi d'yan!) On a sappy parallel note (I'm recuperating from stupidity. lol): Something happened that got me really upset, you see.... It's about my baby's daddy yet again. Well, I guess that's a given. But what came next surprised me. Me, a pretty mild-mannered individual, clenched my fist and drove it straight to the wall. It's so unbecoming and unladylike, I know. But I'm going through so much lately I'm afraid my demeanor is changing; getting quite aggressive and....*sigh* The result: a bruised (swollen)/black-and-blue hand with a couple of tiny cuts on it. Sometimes I just can't take it anymore. I don't want to lose my sanity because that's all I have left, if I let this thing get the better of me, it'll probably land me in some asylum somewhere over this...this...crap! (Arghh!) All I can say is it's hard to deal with someone who doesn't want to end things amicably... (There's always someone who calls the shots, while the other is in misery and treated unjustly. I know it doesn't have to be that way, but right now it is, don't ask why.) I just don't understand why it has to be this hard though.... It's like when it rains, it really does pour. Except it's more like a storm right now.... Oh God, does it have to be, really? No wonder why there are no more sparks between us (mah baby's daddy and moi...) I tell you, as soon as my fist felt the surface of that wall...I knew I messed up. But I had nowhere to direct my anger, I didn't want to hurt anyone else. But boy, what excruciating pain! There was nothing else I could do, so I just cried it all out, that seemed to have helped alleviate the heaviness of what I was feeling. The lesson: Never punch anything unless it's soft like a pillow or if you're feeling extra vigorous, give it all your best shot towards a punching bag instead. Hell, you can even do the matrix with that thing, and it wouldn't hurt as much. I just realized something, "I'm really stupid." lol. (Dito ko na lang muna post at lagay mga [memorable] entries ko...para dito ko na lang sila balik-balikan, basahin [pag gusto ko] kesa sa kabila, medyo lie-low muna ako doon, ala lang, basta. Hehe.) Posted By: Heart Speaks Online In the designs of providence, there are no mere coincidences....--said so by our late, beloved Pope! Now, I'm learning the reasons for the many "I don't know whys" in my life. Instances of that are the confusions of why I say and do the things I say and do...and the outcomes of such behavior/s--written in the stars--predestined, as they say. But I still think (in case we're wrong to assume that; though it seems double stardard), it wouldn't hurt to use some common sense on things, to help make certain things better...because it may be predestined and all, but it's still "us" who live or have to live in (with) it--we are the ones who experience (the un/pleasant) things and/or the ones who will have to face the changes of the consequences--it's us held accountable and responsible for our own actions, ergo, we (must) try to live accordingly. May God bless us all! @@@ Some excerpt from Better Days by Uncle Kracker (I normally don't like this type of music, but this one I sure can relate to....) I been gone for weeks, I ain’t slept in days I can’t find myself in this self made maze It’s been so long since I’ve been fine I’m just tryin’ to see the bottom of this bottle of wine CHORUS And I know I’ll see better days Well I know you’ll see things my way I never thought about change until Spend a little time where time stood still Been lookin’ for a mill but I keep comin’ up shy I been a broke fool, I ain’t tryin’ to be that guy Wanna ride like lightning, roll like thunder I’m tryin’ to get some money, I ain’t getting any younger At times I wonder, at times I won’t Sometimes I give a f*ck but most times I don’t …even care, through stained glass windows these eyes stare I try to stay straight but it’s kickin’ my ass Every time I look ahead I get a glimpse of the past I sit half mass like a soldier’s flag That’s why my left leg limps and my Dickies sag It’s been so long since I’ve been fine I’m just tryin’ to see the bottom of this bottle of wine REPEAT CHORUS Well I been all around this crooked land I come across all walks, I shook Jim Beam’s hand I got no plans and no place to go It keeps getting harder to just say no I see the people laugh and people cry That’s how some live and that’s how some die Well me myself I’m gonna sit right here And I’m a watch this world break down in tears All my fears and dark gray skies Couldn’t crack my smile or break my stride Got too much pride, I got too much shout I might be down but I still ain’t out Got too much time and that’s all I have When I leave this world I’ll still be sad It’s been so long since I’ve been fine I’m just tryin’ to see the bottom of this bottle of wine I knowwww, I'll see better days, yess, I know.... What big excerpt huh, halos buong kanta eh. Hehe. Sorry, it's a long blog na naman ulit, just venting out. Anywayz, muahhhugggzzz, TTYL! Ingats lagi! August 25, 2006 He loves me, he loves me not.... He loves me! It's nice out today, quite breezy for a change. It's been weeks since I came out of my little cocoon, I'm kinda like a hermit--figuratively speaking of course--a hermit who hardly ever comes out of her secluded cave, if at all. Hehe. So yeah, in the midst of this "turmoil" going-on in my life, I finally had the urge to come out and just have a quiet moment all by/to myself... I realized that, like "milk," it sure does (me) some good! Hehe...well, so it seems. So I went for a walk about two hours or so ago, and when I got tired of that, I rested under this big tree situated right in front of my porch. As I lied down there, the birds were having a great time too as it seemed; and otherwhile, they'd chirp--intoned. It was really tranquil, and so receptive to some musing, I thought. So I welcomed it with grace; it's not so often I get this kind of warm invitation from nature, so I indulged in it, for a while.... As I sat there, listening to my mp3s (love songs that I have been saving for a while now), reflecting on the past, I thought it'd be cool if I could find a four-leaf clover to wish upon... but how inauspicious it turned out, I just couldn't find one; well of course not, where I live and all.... So I settled with a bundle of these diminutive stray flowers within my reach, and then, a funny thing occurred, it just totally took over me...and sort of like a magical moment, I could feel the momentum building.... "....He loves me, he loves me not, he loves me, he loves me not, he loves me!" There I chanted, as his favorite song played on my portable mp3 player... "He loves me?" I repeated, in whisper, the latter to myself. "...and that was the last petal too!" I thought. Wow, that was so convincing! But knowing me, it wouldn't be enough, I just had to try again, and so I did! You know, just to be sure? Hehe. I tell you, I really felt so much like a teenager (it was all coming back to me, haha), and I liked it...no, let me rephrase that...I loved the feeling it gave me being out there alone and for once, actually having fun, well, sort of anyways...it's been a long time, y'know? I just miss being me. Actually, it's more like, I miss you and me; I soooo miss being with you...It's really no fun without you.... "He loves me, he loves me not, he loves me, he loves me not, he loves me, he loves me not, he loves me!" Yet again! Oh this time, I am not going to push my luck, I didn't want it to turn into something ominous. Oh, heavens, no! I wasn't about to take any chances, so quiting while I was ahead wasn't such a bad idea, after all.... That's the beauty of knowing when to stop; the choice is always ours! Hehe. But where is this love story going? That's what I want to know... Will fairy tales with happy endings ever assure me it can happen for real...to me...to us? I'm more than eager to believe...because baby, you're my only wish...palagi, sa buhay ko. (I found this letter I wrote some time ago about someone very special to my heart, and I decided to post it here today, to update my page. Can't really think of anything better than to show or profess, here, the truth--the very profound feeling that still lives deep within me!!!--May God bring us closer, once more.... I want you to know, I really miss you, so much! You'll always be in here, deep in my heart.) @@@ Some pictures of moi. (Picture taken late last year [2005] by my little boy. Sorry if it's a bit blurry, the cam was going on us) (|This picture is yet again, quite blurry; sorry. But I'd say it's still pretty good, considering it's a little boy who took it. Hehe. Taken early this year, around April of 2006) (Updated 08/29 12:22 PM: Ang sarap mo kausap, namimiss ko.... kaylan kaya ulit tayo makakapag-usap? Hay.... Eto ako ngayon, naggugunita pa din ng mga nakaraan. hmm, corny ba? Hehe. Ah basta, bahala ka! , Sige ingats lagi ha, kung nasaan ka man.... Be blessed! TTYL! Muahhugggzzz! ) Taken by me a couple of months ago @ my front yard. I just love taking pictures; obviously, Photography is a hobby of mine. I added the caption too! @@@ (This one's from lovingyou.com) @@@ Anywho, for a different subject, here's a kind of funny (but true) quote of the day: Dear Modern Music, You are absolutely worthless. Love, Bob Dylan Posted By: Heart Speaks Online August 23, 06 Trouble brewing--Impeachment Complaints filed against Pres. Arroyo. But 7 out 8, however, were thrown out...so that leaves her with 1 to worry about.... Not long ago I posted an entry about President Macapagal-Arroyo; I just thought I'd repost it, and here it goes: _______________________________________________ --February 2006-- "Democracy (from Greek [demokratia], [demos] the common people + [kratein] to rule + the suffix [ia], literally 'the common people rule') is a system where the population of a society controls the government. Democratic government also aspires to serve over 'the people' rather than ruling over them." And my take on this? I believe that one of the many good elements (simplest principles) about Democracy is when the government really listens; giving the citizens of its country the right/chance to speak and be heard. And that is what we call, constitutionally, true Freedom. I think Pres. Arroyo should let the people, without any undue burden, celebrate and have their anniversary commemorations of the "People Power" that resulted to Marcos' relegation some 20 years ago. And although I see very little change in stability over economy and politics since then, it's still a democratic country.... Mournfully, the people of my beloved country can't help but feel and see Arroyo's administration is somewhat parallel of one running a totalitarian state by its own, believed to be, unwarranted actions. But like every story, there's always two sides that should both be addressed, and must find solution to, in a civil manner. Just so you know, I'm not being biased here my fellow bloggers. The fact is, I understand the President's woes and worries, and I honestly do sympathize. If her calls for "double red alert" is valid over this alleged coup attempt against her regime, and that her opponents are just manipulating the people and the situation that can put the government in peril...then who can blame her, really? That is very serious and unfortunate, that I think a lot of people can relate to. I just hope that this passes very quickly and peacefully. and I PRAY that this does not lead to Martial law. Now, that will be very unjust to everyone...and it'll definitely prove gravely unfavorable for her. A fine line between love and hate. If you ask me, I really wouldn't want to be in her shoes--in her position--your subjects and/or the community will either LOVE you (it may very well be only "artificial" or if not, sometimes, this is easily persuaded into antipathy,) or really HATE you to begin with, until the end. Specially after that cheating this last election that supposedly Mrs. President took part of, it completely made things worse. In fact, I'm more inclined to believe it (and the allegation about her husband and son's involvement in Jueteng [illegal gambling activity] a couple of years back) is (are) what made people (more) outraged...ergo prompted this whole new crisis. I just think it's really sad for the country I love and so admire...seeing how unstable it is and for many many years now, that is. But still, I can't stop hoping and praying for a better change. Someday, I hope, things will be the way they should.... To all my friends, I'll be praying for peace and joy for all of us--Yes, you'll all be included in my prayers tonight!--God bless!!! Posted By: Heart Speaks Online

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Monday, August 21, 2006

Phobia Be Gone!!! Yesterday, after a long 5 years of not stepping foot on the beach, I've finally gathered enough courage to go.... And there, I came face to face with the magnificent sight of the ocean I evaded for so long, attributed to my fear of the water. Once we got all settled in a spot, I sat peacefully on a blanket... then, I took a good look around, and I couldn't help but sigh a question of significance; "Just how, oh how could I ever deprive myself of such grandeur?--one of the variegated beauties that God gave us all for free--that's really beyond me!" But today, I'm happy to say that I'm no longer afraid (well, at least not all that much anymore) that I even went for a swim! So kudos to me (yeah, congratulate me, hehe; I consider this one great feat of conquering fear/s....)! Speaking of fear, sometimes, it makes me wonder, will I ever get over snakes? I am sooo dead scared of them. I have a feeling, this one's a losing fight. But I wouldn't mind watching the movie "Snakes On A Plane" though. I wonder if it'll be as good as with all the fuss about it. Hehe. But yeah, I can watch shows that featured them in it, I just can't stand seeing them up close and personal, that's the thing. But I don't think I'm alone in this, a lot of people are scared of snakes and spiders anyway, and so I guess it is, somewhat, no big deal. I have a few more fears to talk about, but I'm not going to blog about 'em right now. I'll save 'em--that issue will be for a different entry. So well, for now, I'll end this entry here. Until next time! Take care! TTYL! Ciao! (A couple of pictures I took. Hope you like 'em. ) Posted By: Heart Speaks Online

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Thursday, August 17, 2006

~Girls' Stuff~ Haha, pangbabae banat ko tonight! Hehe. WOMEN, often than not, are almost always in the dark as to really knowing, precisely, what their real bra size is! Not all, but a high percentage of women anyway. As a matter of fact, I, myself, went on for years not knowing exactly what the right size cup was for me...until recently, that is! All along, besides the sporadic distrust or uncentainty that instigated, I thought I was a size "C" cup. But lately, I begun feeling more and more uncomfortable as I age...and sure enough, after doing some needed research on the subject, it turned out "C" cup wasn't the right size for me. No wonder I always felt stifled.... You probably don't realize this, but wearing the wrong size bra will not only alter your boobies' own natural beauty, it can also give you bad posture, major discomfort and/or achy back (feeling) as well. And if you're really larger than you initially thought, it may even suffocate you to death wearing the wrong size bra! So, to avoid this unnecessary torture ("cruelty to your little babies"), start feeling more comfortable and boobilicious by visiting the site listed below. http://www.limageplus.com/howtomeasure.html So go ahead, enhance and enjoy wearing your bras! Posted By: Heart Speaks Online

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Sunday, August 13, 2006
Here's a new journal of mine... & for the 1st entry, here's Mga Nagbabagang Balita Jokes!!

...and I just wanted to say "welcome" to anyone who might stumble upon this webpage.

And haha, welcome din doon sa mga friends ko who might find out itong bagong page na ito...and mind you, I'm not hiding from you guys, it's just that I felt like making a new journal and start posting here--for a change of atmosphere lang kung baga--and if you come across this page, eh di bongga, diva, you solved the mystery!

And although wala pang nakakaalam ng page ko na ito, like I said, wini-welcome ko kayong lahat! Read all you want, ika nga.... At haha...it's like a game din eh noh, like kase hindi ko nga bubuking sarili ko na may bagong page--parang piece of a puzzle dating per se--once na makita 'yong piece or maka-crack 'yong code, eh di busted! Tanong, ano premyo pag nafind out? (Hehe) Well, I don't know pa...pero p'wede utang na lang muna? LOL!

Pero seriously, I'm sure you guys understand, kayo pa, lakas ko sa inyo din ano! Saka ala namang masamang may iba pang webpage eh, diba? Pag 'yong parang you feel bored doon sa isa, eh dito (sa kabila) ka naman mag post, oh diba? Hehe. There's just one thing, I haven't decided if I should or would ever welcome comments here.... For now I'd leave it this way, just posting lang muna. Sorry. Hehe.

Well, ciao for now. Read the jokes down below, hehe, I updated this entry eh, I added the jokes. Ala naman; nagpapatawa lang ng konti. Hehe. Enjoy! TTYL!
Posted By: Heart Speaks Online

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Mga Nagbabagang Balita!!!
(Eto na po, Hahaha!!!)

Ano pa bang mas magandang daan upang umpisahan ang isang webpeyg kaysa sa mag paulan ng ilang biro. kaya't wala ng paligoy-ligoy pa (haha) ito ang ilang patawang nabasa't nadinig ko hir onlayn, kamakailan, hehe. Wala lang, natawa ako e, kaya I tot I wod sheyr it hir para sa kung sino mang mapasilip rito sa aking maliit na dampa sa ilalim ng "supot ng gagamba na kasinglaki ng mundo" (get it, as in www? Tama ba? Haha, ano ba 'yan, wat da pak nga ba mga pinagsasabi ko rito? Pati ako naguguluhan...nyahaha), mapatawa kahit konti, 'wag lang sana makornihan. Hehe. Di naman eh!

Ah, basta, kyut pa din naman magpatawa Pinoy e! Katuwa.

Pero isa pala munang babala! Mahaba ang entradang ito, kung kaya't kailangang magbigay ako ng isang "prosid wid kos'yon!" Ayan, nasabi ko na, hehe. kaya't sige, magbasa ka na.

Mga nagbabagang balita!!!

*Dalawang kalbo, nag-sabunutan!!!
* Capt. Hook dumaan sa Quiapo, pinirata!!!
* Palaisdaan, nasunog!!!
* Tahanang Walang Hagdan, inakyat!!!
* Bakla sumali sa away, napasubo!!!
* Bagong tuli nagyabang, lumaki ang ulo!!!
* Unanong *****, napagkamalang penguin!!!
* Bulag nakapatay, nagdilim daw ang paningin!!!
* Iceman nanood ng porno, nag-init!!!
* Tindera ng suka, tinoyo!!!
* Teacher nagkamali, tinuruan ng leksyon!!!
* Lolo naakusahang nang-rape, pero sa korte...biktima ayaw tumayo!!!
* Eroplano nag-crash, lahat ng pasahero namatay...sabi ng mga survivors!!!
* Basurero nagsampa ng kaso, ibinasura!!!
* Dahil may reklamo, eskwelahan ng mga bingi nag-noise barrage!!!
* Tubero, nagka-tulo!!!
* Lalaki natagpuang pugot ang ulo, inaalam pa kung buhay!!!
* Barbero tumestigo sa krimen, ayaw paniwalaan!!!
* Misis ng photographer, nakunan!!!
* Tindera ng tubig, namatay sa uhaw!!!
* Kaso ng pilay, nilalakad!!!
* Invisible man, nakita na!!!
* Bakla lumuhod sa simbahan, pinalabas!!!
* Labandera nagkamali, sinabon!!!
* Lalaki kumain ng boneless bangus, natinik!!!
* Janitor sumali sa basketball, nilampaso!!!
* Paco binaha, kinalawang!!!
* Dahil lagi raw tulog, guwardiya binantayan!!!
*Bangkay, natagpuang patay!!!
*Tindera ng mais, nagpatawa korni!!!
*Tindero ng plastik, supot!!!

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Hinding-hindi ko makakalimutan ang mga mumunti ngunit ginintuang butil na payo na nakuha ko sa aking mga magulang:

1. Si Inay, tinuruan niya ako HOW TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE: "Kung kayong dalawa ay magpapatayan, doon kayo sa labas! Mga leche kayo, kalilinis ko lang ng bahay."

2. Natuto ako ng RELIGION kay Itay: "Kapag yang mantsa di natanggal sa carpet, magdasal ka na!"

3. Kay Inay ako natuto ng LOGIC: "Kaya ganyan, dahil sinabi ko."

4. At kay Inay pa rin ako natuto MORE LOGIC: "Kapag ikaw ay nalaglag diyan sa bubong,ako lang magisa ang manonood ng sine."

5. Si Inay din ang nagturo sa akin kung ano ang ibig sabihin ng IRONY: "Sige ngumalngal ka pa at bibigyan talaga kita ng iiyakan mo!"

6. Si Inay ang nagpaliwanag sa akin kung ano ang CONTORTIONISM: "Tingnan mo nga yang dumi sa likod ng leeg mo, tingnan mo!!!"

7. Si Itay ang nagpaliwanag sa akin kung anong ibig sabihin ng STAMINA: "Wag kang tatayo diyan hangga't di mo nauubos lahat ng pagkain mo!"

8. At si Inay ang nagturo sa amin kung ano ang WEATHER: "Lintek talaga kayo, ano ba itong kuwarto nyong magkapatid, parang dinaanan ng bagyo!"

9. Ganito ang paliwanag sa akin ni Inay tungkol sa CIRCLE OF LIFE: "Malandi kang bata ka, iniluwal kita sa mundong ito, maari rin kitang alisin sa mundong ito."

10. Kay Itay ako natuto kung ano ang BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION: "Tumigil ka nga diyan! Huwag kang mag-inarte na parang Nanay mo!"

11. Si Inay naman ang nagturo kung anong ibig sabihin ng GENETICS: "Nagmana ka ngang talaga sa ama mong walanghiya!"

12. Si Inay naman ang nagpaliwanag sa amin kung anong ibig sabihin ng ENVY: "Maraming mga batang ulila sa magulang,di ba kayo nagpapasalamat at mayroon kayong magulang na tulad namin?"

13. Si Itay naman ang nagturo sa akin ng ANTICIPATION: "Sige kang bata ka, hintayin mong makarating tayo sa bahay!"

14. At si Itay pa rin ang nagturo kay Kuya kung anong ibig sabihin ng RECEIVING: "Uupakan kita pagdating natin sa bahay!"

15. Si Inay naman ang nagturo sa akin kung ano ang HUMOR: "Kapag naputol yang mga paa mo ng pinaglalaruan mong lawnmower, wag na wag kang tatakbo sa akin at lulumpuhin kita!"

16. At ang pinakamahalaga sa lahat, natutunan ko kina Inay at Itay kung ano ang JUSTICE: "Isang araw magkakaroon ka rin ng anak, tiyak magiging katulad mo at magiging sakit din sa ulo!"

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Learn Chinese in 10 Minutes

1) That's not right ......................... Sum Ting Wong
2) Are you harboring a fugitive?............. Hu Yu Hai Ding
3) See me ASAP................................ Kum Hia Nao
4) Stupid Man ................................ Dum Fuk
5) Small Horse ............................... Tai Ni Po Ni
6) Did you go to the beach? .................. Wai Yu So Tan
7) I bumped into a coffee table .............. Ai Bang Mai Fa Kin Ni
8) I think you need a face lift .............. Chin Tu Fat
9) It's very dark in here .................... Wao So Dim
10) I thought you were on a diet ............. Wai Yu Mun Ching
11) This is a tow away zone .................. No Pah King
12) Our meeting is scheduled for next week ... Wai Yu Kum Nao
13) Staying out of sight ..................... Lei Ying Lo
14) He's cleaning his automobile ............. Wa Shing Ka
15) Your body odor is offensive .............. Yu Stin Ki Pu
16) Great .................................... Fa Kin Su Pah

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TAGALOG JOKES Ambisyoso

EDSON: "Inay, kelan po ba tayo bibili ng bapor?"
SABEL: "Malapit na anak."
EDSON: "Kelan nga po?"
SABEL: "Pag may sarili na tayong dagat!"

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Tatay na Mayabang: Ako'y tunay na natutuwa sa aking panganay na lalaki. Nagtapos ng Business Administration sa UP at mayroong MBA galing sa Harvard. Ngayon, e Presidente siya ng isang malaking Corporasyon. Sa yaman niya, e, binigyan niya ng isang Mercedes at isang BMW yung isang kaibigan niya.

Tatay na Mayabang Rin: Ako'y galak na galak sa bunso kong lalaki. Nagtapos ng Medicina sa UP-PGH at nag Residency sa Sloan Kettering. Ngayon, e Director for Research siya at kandidato para sa Nobel Prize. Mayaman din siya. Biro mo, yung isang kaibigan e binigyan niya ng apartment sa 5th Avenue sa Manhattan.

Tatay na Nahihiya: Ako'y medyo disappointed dito sa kaisaisa kong lalaki. Nangyari pa e bakla at binabae. Hindi bale nang malandi, e kung sino-sino pang lalaki ang mga kinkasama. Hairdresser siya pero mukha namang mahusay makisama. Yung kaniyang BMW at Mercedes, at yung tinitirhan niyang apartment sa 5th Avenue e bigay lahat ng mga "boypren" niya.

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Batang Mayabang: Ang tatay ko, pag nagsigarilyo, napapalabas niya sa ilong ang usok!

Batang MasMayabang: Luma siya ng tatay ko. Ang tatay ko, pagnagsigarilyo, labas sa tainga ang usok!

Batang Pinakamayabang: Luma silang lahat ng tatay ko. Ang tatay ko, pagnagsigarilyo, labas sa puwit ang usok!

Batang Mayabang at Batang MasMayabang: Naka! Yabang mo naman! Paano mo naman nalaman?

Batang Pinakamayabang: Kaninang umaga, bago labhan ng nanay ko yung jockey niya, nakita ko may nicotine pa nga, eh!

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A judicial clerk in a small and far-flung provincial court had to translate, from Tagalog to English, the following passage uttered by a witness:

"Pagkatapos ng kung ano-ano ay nagdatingan ang kung sino-sino!"

Confidently and simply, the clerk wrote: "After the what-what came the who-who!"

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O corny ba? Di naman e, katuwa nga eh, kahit papaano, nakakasaya ng day at nakakabawas/alis ng boredom. OK na din sa olrayt! Hek hek.
So 'yon, hope na enjoy naman n'yo kahit paano... Basta, anything...just to crack a smile on your face. Uy, inglis 'yon ha! Ha ha ha. Speaking of English, here's a Chat/Internet Addict joke! hope you like it! :

You Know You're An Internet Addict When:

• You spend more time on your girlfriend's home page than with your girlfriend.
• You didn't know that Firefox was also a movie starring Clint Eastwood.
  
• Your bookmark takes 15 minutes to scroll from top to bottom.
• There's a permanent ass-groove in your computer chair, but you haven't noticed.
• You've said "no" to sex in order to view Internet porn.
  
• You've rationalized installing a mini-fridge, microwave, and port-a-potty at your workstation.
• You go shopping every week, but you've never been inside a mall.
• You don't believe anything you read in a newspaper unless you verify it on a news site.
• You think that 404 is the number of the beast.
• You refuse to go outside because of the sun: "it burns! IT BURNS!!"
  
• Your eyeglasses have a web site burned in on them.
• You find yourself typing "com" after every period when using a word processor.com
• You refer to going to the bathroom as downloading. And you have an ethernet connection right next to the toilet paper.
  
• You step out of your room and realize that your parents have moved and you don't have a clue when it happened.
• You crank up your surround-sound whenever leaving the room so you can hear if new e-mail arrives.
• All of your friends have an @ in their names.
• When looking at a pageful of someone else's links, you notice all of them are already highlighted in purple.
• You've already visited all the links at Yahoo and you're halfway through Lycos.
• You can't call your mother...she doesn't have IRC, ICQ, or Instant Messaging.
• You check your mail. It says "no new messages." So you check it again.
• You have commandeered your teenager's phone line for a secondary net connection in case your ADSL goes down, and even his friends know not to call on his line anymore.
• Your phone bill comes to your doorstep in a box.
• You code your homework in HTML and give your instructor the URL.
• You don't know the sex of three of your closest friends, because they have gender-neutral nicknames and you never bothered to ask.
• You name your children Eudora, Mozilla and Dotcom.
• Your husband tells you he's had the beard for 2 months.
• You wake up at 3 a.m. to go to the bathroom and stop and check your e-mail on the way back to bed.
• You tell the cab driver you live at http://123.elm.street/house/bluetrim.html
• You actually try that 123.elm.street address.
• You tell the kids they can't use the computer because "Daddy's got work to do" and you don't even have a job.
• Your wife makes a new rule: "The computer cannot come to bed.". So you file for a divorce...online.
  
• You are so familiar with the WWW that you find the search engines useless.
• You get a tattoo that says "This body best viewed with Internet Explorer 5.0 or higher."
• You forget what year it is.
• You start tilting your head sideways to smile.
• You begin to wonder how on earth your service provider is allowed to call 200 hours per month "unlimited."
• You turn on your computer and turn off your wife.
• Your wife says communication is important in a marriage...so you buy another computer and add her to the network so the two of you can chat.
• You refuse to go on vacation where there's no electricity, phone lines, or hotspots.
  
• You finally do take that vacation, but only after buying a data-enabled cel-phone, and a wi-fi PDA.
• You spend half of the plane trip with your laptop on your lap...and your child in the overhead compartment.

(sa geekoftheday.com ko ito nakuhang jpg/pic at joke.)

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Ha ha ha, meron joke na ganito dati, na tagalog naman, sabi ganito:

* Alam mong chat addict ka pag 'yong nakahiga ka at nagmumuni-muni, tinatype mo rin silang mga naiisip mo, sa isipan mo.
* Alam mong chat addict ka pag 'yong kahit saang lugar ka nandoon, basta pag may naalala ka, tumatawa-tawa ka. (napapagkamalan ka tuloy baliw).

Anyway, 'yan lang naaalala ko about that eh, pero madami pa talaga 'yon, nakakatuwa.

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Eto naman ang isang joke na itinext sa akin ng aking kapatid na si "Pocholo," natawa ako sa stayl ni Lola d'yan! Hahaha, hanep talaga, gleng! (Hala, di pa rin tapos sa jokes eh noh? Haha, but hey, I gave you a note of caution at the beginning, ika nga read at your own peril, hanggang magdugo mata mo/n'yo kababasa!)

But here goes the last joke of the day:

Apo: Lola pupunta lang kami sa tipar!
Lola: Anu bang tipar ang pinagsasabi nyo?
Apo: Tipar is party.
Lola: Puro salitang kan2 ang alam nyo, mga pakinshet kyo!!

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Hehe. Sige, next time na lang ulit! Kulit ko na eh. Ob'yos ba? Oo! Hehe!
Ta tah for now!