Blogs ko, drama, atbp.... Out of Kilter http://www.picturetrail.com/philamgirl (Please click above link for Photos). Something bothers me lately... Crab and/or Crawfish mentality, that is! Unfortunately this isn't the first time I heard some people say that this vile characteristic is one great sickness of Filipinos. What's even more sad though, is when a Filipino says it about his own people. That is something I can't quite comprehend. As if it isn't bad enough we are getting blackballed by others, here we have to deal with our own....
Correct me if I'm wrong, but aren't we supposed to love one another; isn't that one of God's most fervent noble wishes (commandments)? Then why act as oppose to it? It's really disappointing to many of us because we see the total opposite of this a lot more these days. For instance, when our kababayans (Fellow Filipinos) tell on those poor TNTS... what's the deal? I don't know any TNTS myself, kung may makilala man ako, aasikasuhin ko 'yong sarili kong business. But then again, we really don't know what prompted or what's driving some (there may be a number of reasons that lead them to do such a thing -- maybe they think they are just being law abiding citizens and doing the society a favor. Buti and I can see if the TNTS ay mga terorista. Iba na 'yon, dapat magkaisa para sugpuin talaga 'yon) to do it, so I really can't judge them. Like I said, some Filipinos don't have the sense of camaraderie, but I still wouldn't stigmatize them in general as "envious people;" and it is unreasonable to say, because of that alone, that Filipinos have this type of dire mentality; it simply isn't true.
That leads me to these questions, "how do they know for sure that all or the majority of Filipinos are this way? Where did they draw their general conclusion from?" I'd like to know. Do they just focus on us alone, watching our every move or the words we say, and hence came to a conclusion that this is who and how we really are as Filipinos in whole? Wow, they make it sound as if we're the worst race of people that ever walked on earth.
The thing is, most people tend to stereotype, that's true in every race. But just because you heard something from one person about someone doesn't make it all true--it's wrong to make a whole race suffer or pay the price of one particular individual's mistakes or misdeeds. When we judge a man, we alter that person's life, with unpredictable effect...and subsequently, will have to live with that.
The truth is, crab or crawfish mentality did not originate from the Philippines. This is not what we represent; or at least not just the Filipinos. It's a universal dilemma since men begun to roam this planet and since the time we were given the capacitiy to feel emotions. So let's stop unpleasantly branding one another, instead, be aware of others' feelings and think of the consequence that can affect each and everyone of us in some ways big and small if we continue to discriminate or ostracize.
Rejoice the success of others, specially of those family/relatives and/or friends. Fill your heart with joy, you'll live longer! That's one less you'll worry about.
--PleasurezAndPainz
A Wise man once said that "envy is the most anti-social and evil of all passions." I recommend this website for a related subject: http://word.crusade.org/word/word496.html Posted By: Heart Speaks Online
Sept 05
'Yan na nga ba sinasabi ko eh, kaya pala I was feeling so down, magkakasakit pala ako, eto ako ngayon, may trangkaso, walang ginawa ngayon kundi matulog. Ala din naman akong ganang kumain, kahit pa ano ulam. Ewan ko, ala akong panlasa eh, gano'n ako pag may lagnat o trangkaso minsan e. Kaasar.
Pero it doesn't help any din 'yong mag-isip ng kung ano-ano, like kahapon talaga, para akong hilong talilok, matapos mabasa ng ulan pagkagaling namin sa mall. So pinakain ako, kase baka daw sa gutom, I ate, pero gano'n pa din, talagang naduduling ako sa hilo, saka nadodouble tingin ko. So inihiga ko, kahit para akong mag b-blow. Hay. Eto, medyo maigi ng konti ngayon ang aking pakiramdam, kase uminom ako ng gamot, kani-kanina. And I feel so bored, kaya eto, sa harap ng pc, nag tatata-type na naman. Hehe.
Anyway, a few days ago, iyong isang kakilala ko, nagkuk'wento tungkol sa kanyang lovelife. Down din s'ya, so sabi ko, buti nga ikaw may lovelife eh, 'yong iba wala. Pero sad daw s'ya eh. Kase sabi n'ya, 'yong guy daw na mahal n'ya, masyado daw reserve...as in hindi daw open sa kanya. 'Yong feelings daw ba, parang patago? Hindi daw tuloy n'ya talaga alam kung ano tunay na nararamdaman no'n. "Ha ha ha," sabi ko, "Welcome to the club, ang sa akin man ay mahirap maunawain, hindi na kase s'ya katulad ng dati, noon na nasasabi n'ya ang lahat sa akin, ngayon ata ay nac-cornihan na s'ya, kaya nga matagal ko na ding hindi nadidinig 'yong gusto kong madinig. 'Yon, corny daw e...ata, so OK lang." Sabi n'ya, "Gano'n ba? Hindi pala ako nag-iisa. Bakit gan'yan ang mga lalaki, feeling nila cool sila pag 'yon hindi sila nas-share sa atin ng kahit na anong intimate thoughts, kahit na nakakasakit sa atin 'yon, dahil we long to hear 'yon eh...something that will definitely makes us happy to hear, kahit paminsan-minsan. Pero para silang walang pakiramdam, pinapalungkot tayo. Cool ba 'yon? It's actually uncool...." Sa sinabi n'ya, naaalala ko tuloy 'yong librong Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus, so sabi ko na lang, "I don't know, your guess is just as good as mine, di ko rin maintindihan eh... I just thought once they realized mahal nila 'yong tao, they shouldn't hide it; they shouldn't be afraid na aminin o sabihin 'yon sa ating mga babae, after all, it's natural; Love is not something to be ashamed of." Sabi nga ni W. Shakespeare "To Thine Own Self Be True, diba?" Naks.
Truth be told: Simula ng huli ko s'yang makausap, di na ako mapalagay. Parang na-heightened 'yong alarm eh, na knowing na in the line of work, madami s'yang nakakasalamuhang ibang mga babae, na sigurado (ayaw n'ya lang sabihin sa akin dahil baka magselos ako), magaganda sila at mga bata pa....and sooner or later, makakalimutan na n'ya ako, ipagpapalit sa iba. Honestly, I can't bear the thought, kaya tuloy low ako, in spirits ngayon. Pero sige, OK lang. Whatever makes him happy, ayos na rin sa akin 'yon, di ko magagawang magalit sa kanya, after all, ako din naman may kasalanan talaga eh, kaya ayoko nga ding mangulit, hindi dapat, and if anything, 'yon ang nakakahiya. So lie-low muna ako. So, gano'n na lang muna 'yon.
Mga lyrics ng songs na gusto kong napapakinggan lately, nilalagay ko ngayon dito. Ewan, trip lang....Laterz!
Jealous By Nina
Jealous of the girl who caught your eye One of my darker days When you looked at her where was I? Shoulda been in her place Here I am All alone imagining what could have been If I had been there
[Chorus:] Jealous of the one whose arms are around you If she's keeping you satisfied Jealous of the one who finally found you Made your sun and your stars collide La la la la la la la She's a very very lucky girl La la la la la la la
Jealous of the one who won your heart They say it's a perfect match She's gonna get to be where you are And I don't get better than that She'll say you're fine Whisper words I wish were mine And they might have been If I had been there
[Repeat Chorus]
You know I'd fight the good fight If I thought I'd change your mind But if she makes you happy I would leave that dream behind Man, she better treat you right And give you everything Cause at the moment she doesn't I'll be waiting in the wings
[Repeat Chorus]
La la la la la la la She's a very very lucky girl
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Just Tell me You Love me By: England Dan And John Ford Coley
Many times, I wished you were here, Through the velvet shadows of my dreams Many times, I wished you were near, Through the darkness as it came but it seems That you, you never said what I needed to hear Just tell me you love me, Whisper words I so long to hear Let this time not be borrowed Let it be ours to share, If you tell me you love me It would lead a way to your heart Through the mirrors of silence, you love me Quietly, I've waited, For the memory born of our first kiss Patiently, I've waited, For the moment you would take me to world That I, I've never seen that world before Just tell me you love me Whisper words I so long to hear Let this time not be borrowed Let it be ours to share If you tell me you love me It would lead a way to your heart Through the mirrors of silence, you love me, you love me
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Ang Huling El Bimbo By: Eraseheads
Kamukha mo si Paraluman nung tayo ay bata pa at ang galing-galing mo sumayaw mapabugi man o cha cha ngunit ang pabotrito ay pagsayaw mo ng el bimbo nakakaindak, nakakaaliw nakakatindig balahibo
pagkagaling sa esk'wela ay didiretso na sa inyo at buong maghapon ay tinuturuan mo ako
(chorus) magkahawak ang ating kamay at walang kamalay-malay na tinuruan mo ang puso ko na umibig ng tunay
nanigas ang aking katawan pag-umikot na ang plaka patay sa kembot ng bewang mo at ang pungay ng iyong mga mata
lumiliwanag ang buhay habang tayo'y magkaakbay at dahang dahan dumudulas ang kamay ko sa makinis mong braso
sana noon pa man ay sinabi na sa iyo kahit hindi na uso ay ito lang ang alam ko
(chorus) la la...la la..la la la la la la...
lumipas ng maraming taon di na tayo nagkita balita ko'y may anak ka na ngunit walang asawa
tagahugas ka raw ng pinggan sa may ermita at 'sang gabi nasagasaan sa isang madilim na eskinita
lahat ng pangarap ko'y bigla lang natunaw sa panaginip na lang pala kita maisasayaw
(chorus 2x)
la la la...la la...la la la la...
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(Itong isang ito dito, gustong-gusto, may naaalala kase akong tao eh, palagi; it's how I feel.)
Ako'y Sa'yo At Ika'y Akin Lamang By: Iaxe/First Circle
Ikaw na ang may sabi, na ako'y mahal mo rin At sinabi mong ang pag-ibig mo'y di magbabago Ngunit bakit sa tuwing ako'y lumalapit ika'y lumalayo? Puso'y laging nasasaktan pag may kasama kang iba
'Di ba nila alam, tayo'y nagsumpaan? Na ako'y sa 'yo at ika'y akin lamang
Kahit ano'ng mangyari, pag-ibig ko'y sa 'yo pa rin Kahit ano pa ang sabihin nila'y ikaw pa rin Ang mahal, maghihintay ako kahit kailan Kahit na umabot pang ako'y nasa langit na
At kung di ka makita, makikiusap ka'y bathala Na ika'y hanapin at sabihin ipaalala sa iyo Ang nakalimutang sumpaan Na ako'y sa 'yo at ika'y akin lamang
Umasa kang maghihintay ako kahit kailan Kahit na umabot pang ako'y nasa langit na
At kung di ka makita, makikiusap ka'y bathala Na ika'y hanapin at sabihin ipaalala sa iyo Ang nakalimutang sumpaan Na ako'y sa 'yo at ika'y akin lamang....

Sept 03, 2006
By MatchBox 20
All day staring at the ceiling Making friends with shadows on my wall All night hearing voices telling me That I should get some sleep Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown And I don't know why
[Chorus]
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell I know right now you can't tell But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see A different side of me I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired I know right now you don't care But soon enough you're gonna think of me And how I used to be...me
I'm talking to myself in public Dodging glances on the train And I know, I know they've all been talking about me I can hear them whisper And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me Out of all the hours thinking Somehow I've lost my mind
[Chorus]
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell I know right now you can't tell But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see A different side of me I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired I know right now you don't care But soon enough you're gonna think of me And how I used to be
I've been talking in my sleep Pretty soon they'll come to get me Yeah, they're taking me away
[Chorus]
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell I know right now you can't tell But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see A different side of me I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired I know right now you don't care But soon enough you're gonna think of me And how I used to be
Yeah, how I used to be How I used to be Well, I'm just a little unwell How I used to be How I used to be I'm just a little unwell
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Sept 02, 2006
Every once in a while I'd wake feeling this way...depressed, that is. Sure, I can think of many reasons for me to be depressed...but what surprises me is that why I don't always feel depressed (that's a good thing) but hmm, it's weird, I know. But man, when I fall into depression, I tell you, I get into it all too deeply, it sucks.... I woke up pretty early today, but didn't feel like getting up right away. I just laid around all morning, and random thoughts just kept on gnawing--"What's the point (of living), really? Why am I still here? What am I going to do tomorrow when I'm still unhappy? What happens when it never comes? Etc.." Pretty morbid thoughts huh, I know. Certainly, I hate it when I feel this way; it's like everything na lang makes me sad today. Ahhh, there's not much I can do but to let it ride as I calm myself down and remind myself that everything is going to be all right (even though it's pretty hard to shake it).
Oh well, it's life. They say, pag may unos, may kapayapaan pagkatapos. Yeah, I think it's true, there's a silver lining for us din naman...so it's all good, I'll be OK. Sorry din dito sa kung sino man makabasa nito. As you know naman, blogging isn't all about happy thoughts. We all (or at least most of us) have intense feelings that sometimes need to be expressed; it helps us cope better with the predicament we're in. So salamat for letting me vent.
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Songs of the day.
Next In Line by After Image
What has life to offer me When I grow old What's there to look forward to beyond the biting cold 'Coz they say it's difficult Yes, stereotypical You gotta be conventional, You can't be so radical
Chorus:
So I sing this song to all of my age For these are the questions We've got to face For in this cycle that we call life We are the ones who are next in line.
Repeat 1st stanza Chorus
We are next in line..Oooh...Ohh.. We are next in line....
And we gotta work, we gotta feel, let's open our eyes and do whatever it takes (2x)
Wooh..ooh..
Repeat Chorus fade
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TAO Sampaguita
Tulad ng isang ibon tao ay lumilipad Pangarap ang tanging nais na marating at matupad Isip ay nalilito pag nakakita ng bago Lahat ng bagay sa mundo ay isang malaking tukso Bakit pa luluha Bakit maghihirap Ayaw mang mangyari Ay di masasabi Sasaktan mo lamang Puso ay wag sugatan Ito'y laro lamang Sa mundong makasalanan Tubig ay natutuyo Bulaklak ay nalalanta Araw ay lumilipas sa gabi rin ang punta Tulad ng isang ibon Tao rin ay namamatay Pangarap niyang tanging nais makarating sa kabilang buhay
-xoxox-
(Para sa lahat ng kabarkada kong mahal. Sayang, kung malapit lang ako sa inyong lahat, whenever you need me, I'll be there sana talaga...but you know naman totoong I will help so long nasa kakayanan ko. So hope you like this song).
Tag-Ulan (with Chords) By After Image
Intro: D-A-G-(4X)
D A G Minsan ika'y nag-iisa walang makasama D A G Di malaman sa'n tutungo D A G naghahanap nag-iisip kung sa'n babaling Bm A G Dito sa mundong mapaglaro
Filler: D-Dsus.D.D9.G-; (2x)
D A G At tuwing ika'y nalulumbay di makakita D A G Nais mo ay may makasama D A G Sa `yong lungkot akala mo ika'y nag-iisa D A G Narito ako't kapiling ka G A Kung nais mo ika'y lumuha G A G-A Ako'y makikinig sa bawat salita
Chorus
D G Kapag umuulan bumubuhos ang langit D#/F G Sa `yong mga mata D G Kapag mayroong unos ay aagos ang luha
D/F# G (Filler) Ngunit di ka mag iisa kaibigan D A G Kay rami ng mga tanong sa `yong isipan D A G Nais mo lamang ay malaman D A G Bakit nagkaganoon ang nangyari sa `yong buhay Bm A G Tanong mo man sa `ki'y `di ko alam G A Handa akong maging tanggulan G A G-A Sa tuwing sasapit sa `yo ang tag_ulan oh
Repeat Chorus except last line
Bridge A G Ako'y naririto naghihintay lamang A G sa `yo tumawag ka't ako ay tatakbo sa piling mo D-G- D Kaibigan, kaibigan
Repeat Chorus
(Filler) Kaibigan. (4x)
Posted By: Heart Speaks Online
| Tribute to my Dear Bess. The following is for one of my finest friends, Bess/Gerly (I miss you) 
Bess, I'm so sorry, OK? Didn't mean to hurt you, I swear.
I know I worry too much, then subsequently finding out that the thing(s)...such as the problem I worried about that involved you was unwarranted. "It" never transpired at all; I know that now and I feel so stupid. But I do recognize when I make mistakes and I'm not at all embarrassed to apologize for them and am pretty quick to correct them when given the chance. I'm not one to let pride come between me and the people I love. For the unnecessary pain I've caused...and for the hurtful things I said--for sort of accusing you and all--I know I can't recant any of it, but I do sincerely apologize. And like I said, I'm more than willing to take all the blame, responsibility and the consequences therefrom.
But on a happier note, things had turned out unexpectedly better than I thought it would; the only thing I resent is that the fact that I couldn't spare you the grief that came along in the process. My being neurotic by nature doesn't help matters any, I know. I can be so quirky @ times that's for sure. Please excuse me for my dreadful flaws. But I know one thing for sure, I honestly do love you dear friend, and I care, so much (apparently, it's why I acted the way I did--I got jealous--I thought you traded me for Grace, so....) And yes, I, too, still want this friendship to continue on! Thanks for being so understanding and for weren't all ready to sever our friendship hastily like I was; it just shows, you're a much bigger person than I am...pasens'yosa ka talaga, kaya saludo ako sa'yo eh! 
We've been through a lot, for many years. Through thick and thin...and I'll never forget the pact we've made. No distance can keep us from staying best of friends! And I want you to know, I'm in this too deeply and all the way; you'll always be my Bess (one of my very few [selected] best friends) for life!
And girl, I'm so happy for you and Rey; finally, andito na prince charming mo, (para ngang 'yong sabi sa kanta ng Chicago na "like a knight in shining armor from a long time ago, he'll take you to his castle far away [far away nga, in deed!] hehe!) pero seriously, talaga I like him, mabait s'ya, nakilatis ko na s'ya. Hehe. So kaya, may God bless your union talaga! You two have my blessing (like kailangan? Hahaha). Take care of each other, OK? Muahhhhugggzzzz   
(Ang sarap din mag gunita ng ating mga alala, babae ka, hehe , nakakatuwa. Ingat din lagi d'yan!) On a sappy parallel note (I'm recuperating from stupidity. lol): Something happened that got me really upset, you see.... It's about my baby's daddy yet again. Well, I guess that's a given. But what came next surprised me. Me, a pretty mild-mannered individual, clenched my fist and drove it straight to the wall. It's so unbecoming and unladylike, I know. But I'm going through so much lately I'm afraid my demeanor is changing; getting quite aggressive and....*sigh*
The result: a bruised (swollen)/black-and-blue hand with a couple of tiny cuts on it. Sometimes I just can't take it anymore. I don't want to lose my sanity because that's all I have left, if I let this thing get the better of me, it'll probably land me in some asylum somewhere over this...this...crap! (Arghh!) All I can say is it's hard to deal with someone who doesn't want to end things amicably... (There's always someone who calls the shots, while the other is in misery and treated unjustly. I know it doesn't have to be that way, but right now it is, don't ask why.) I just don't understand why it has to be this hard though.... It's like when it rains, it really does pour. Except it's more like a storm right now.... Oh God, does it have to be, really? No wonder why there are no more sparks between us (mah baby's daddy and moi...)
I tell you, as soon as my fist felt the surface of that wall...I knew I messed up. But I had nowhere to direct my anger, I didn't want to hurt anyone else. But boy, what excruciating pain! There was nothing else I could do, so I just cried it all out, that seemed to have helped alleviate the heaviness of what I was feeling.
The lesson: Never punch anything unless it's soft like a pillow or if you're feeling extra vigorous, give it all your best shot towards a punching bag instead. Hell, you can even do the matrix with that thing, and it wouldn't hurt as much.
I just realized something, "I'm really stupid." lol.
(Dito ko na lang muna post at lagay mga [memorable] entries ko...para dito ko na lang sila balik-balikan, basahin [pag gusto ko] kesa sa kabila, medyo lie-low muna ako doon, ala lang, basta. Hehe.) Posted By: Heart Speaks Online  In the designs of providence, there are no mere coincidences....--said so by our late, beloved Pope!
Now, I'm learning the reasons for the many "I don't know whys" in my life.
Instances of that are the confusions of why I say and do the things I say and do...and the outcomes of such behavior/s--written in the stars--predestined, as they say. But I still think (in case we're wrong to assume that; though it seems double stardard), it wouldn't hurt to use some common sense on things, to help make certain things better...because it may be predestined and all, but it's still "us" who live or have to live in (with) it--we are the ones who experience (the un/pleasant) things and/or the ones who will have to face the changes of the consequences--it's us held accountable and responsible for our own actions, ergo, we (must) try to live accordingly. May God bless us all! @@@ Some excerpt from Better Days by Uncle Kracker (I normally don't like this type of music, but this one I sure can relate to....)
I been gone for weeks, I ain’t slept in days I can’t find myself in this self made maze It’s been so long since I’ve been fine I’m just tryin’ to see the bottom of this bottle of wine
CHORUS
And I know I’ll see better days Well I know you’ll see things my way
I never thought about change until Spend a little time where time stood still Been lookin’ for a mill but I keep comin’ up shy I been a broke fool, I ain’t tryin’ to be that guy Wanna ride like lightning, roll like thunder I’m tryin’ to get some money, I ain’t getting any younger At times I wonder, at times I won’t Sometimes I give a f*ck but most times I don’t …even care, through stained glass windows these eyes stare I try to stay straight but it’s kickin’ my ass Every time I look ahead I get a glimpse of the past I sit half mass like a soldier’s flag That’s why my left leg limps and my Dickies sag It’s been so long since I’ve been fine I’m just tryin’ to see the bottom of this bottle of wine
REPEAT CHORUS
Well I been all around this crooked land I come across all walks, I shook Jim Beam’s hand I got no plans and no place to go It keeps getting harder to just say no I see the people laugh and people cry That’s how some live and that’s how some die Well me myself I’m gonna sit right here And I’m a watch this world break down in tears All my fears and dark gray skies Couldn’t crack my smile or break my stride Got too much pride, I got too much shout I might be down but I still ain’t out Got too much time and that’s all I have When I leave this world I’ll still be sad It’s been so long since I’ve been fine I’m just tryin’ to see the bottom of this bottle of wine
I knowwww, I'll see better days, yess, I know....
What big excerpt huh, halos buong kanta eh. Hehe. Sorry, it's a long blog na naman ulit, just venting out. Anywayz, muahhhugggzzz, TTYL! Ingats lagi!  |
August 25, 2006
He loves me, he loves me not.... He loves me!
It's nice out today, quite breezy for a change. It's been weeks since I came out of my little cocoon, I'm kinda like a hermit--figuratively speaking of course--a hermit who hardly ever comes out of her secluded cave, if at all. Hehe. So yeah, in the midst of this "turmoil" going-on in my life, I finally had the urge to come out and just have a quiet moment all by/to myself... I realized that, like "milk," it sure does (me) some good! Hehe...well, so it seems. 
So I went for a walk about two hours or so ago, and when I got tired of that, I rested under this big tree situated right in front of my porch. As I lied down there, the birds were having a great time too as it seemed; and otherwhile, they'd chirp--intoned. It was really tranquil, and so receptive to some musing, I thought. So I welcomed it with grace; it's not so often I get this kind of warm invitation from nature, so I indulged in it, for a while....
As I sat there, listening to my mp3s (love songs that I have been saving for a while now), reflecting on the past, I thought it'd be cool if I could find a four-leaf clover to wish upon... but how inauspicious it turned out, I just couldn't find one; well of course not, where I live and all.... So I settled with a bundle of these diminutive stray flowers within my reach, and then, a funny thing occurred, it just totally took over me...and sort of like a magical moment, I could feel the momentum building....
"....He loves me, he loves me not, he loves me, he loves me not, he loves me!" There I chanted, as his favorite song played on my portable mp3 player... "He loves me?" I repeated, in whisper, the latter to myself. "...and that was the last petal too!" I thought. Wow, that was so convincing! But knowing me, it wouldn't be enough, I just had to try again, and so I did! You know, just to be sure? Hehe. I tell you, I really felt so much like a teenager (it was all coming back to me, haha), and I liked it...no, let me rephrase that...I loved the feeling it gave me being out there alone and for once, actually having fun, well, sort of anyways...it's been a long time, y'know? I just miss being me. Actually, it's more like, I miss you and me; I soooo miss being with you...It's really no fun without you....
"He loves me, he loves me not, he loves me, he loves me not, he loves me, he loves me not, he loves me!" Yet again! Oh this time, I am not going to push my luck, I didn't want it to turn into something ominous. Oh, heavens, no! I wasn't about to take any chances, so quiting while I was ahead wasn't such a bad idea, after all.... That's the beauty of knowing when to stop; the choice is always ours! Hehe. 
But where is this love story going? That's what I want to know... Will fairy tales with happy endings ever assure me it can happen for real...to me...to us? I'm more than eager to believe...because baby, you're my only wish...palagi, sa buhay ko.
(I found this letter I wrote some time ago about someone very special to my heart, and I decided to post it here today, to update my page. Can't really think of anything better than to show or profess, here, the truth--the very profound feeling that still lives deep within me!!!--May God bring us closer, once more.... I want you to know, I really miss you, so much! You'll always be in here, deep in my heart.) @@@ Some pictures of moi.
(Picture taken late last year [2005] by my little boy. Sorry if it's a bit blurry, the cam was going on us)
(|This picture is yet again, quite blurry; sorry. But I'd say it's still pretty good, considering it's a little boy who took it. Hehe. Taken early this year, around April of 2006)
(Updated 08/29 12:22 PM: Ang sarap mo kausap, namimiss ko.... kaylan kaya ulit tayo makakapag-usap? Hay.... Eto ako ngayon, naggugunita pa din ng mga nakaraan. hmm, corny ba? Hehe. Ah basta, bahala ka! , Sige ingats lagi ha, kung nasaan ka man.... Be blessed! TTYL! Muahhugggzzz!  )
Taken by me a couple of months ago @ my front yard. I just love taking pictures; obviously, Photography is a hobby of mine. I added the caption too! 
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Anywho, for a different subject, here's a kind of funny (but true) quote of the day:
Dear Modern Music, You are absolutely worthless. Love, Bob Dylan
Posted By: Heart Speaks Online 
August 23, 06 Trouble brewing--Impeachment Complaints filed against Pres. Arroyo. But 7 out 8, however, were thrown out...so that leaves her with 1 to worry about....
Not long ago I posted an entry about President Macapagal-Arroyo; I just thought I'd repost it, and here it goes:
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--February 2006--
"Democracy (from Greek [demokratia], [demos] the common people + [kratein] to rule + the suffix [ia], literally 'the common people rule') is a system where the population of a society controls the government. Democratic government also aspires to serve over 'the people' rather than ruling over them."
And my take on this?
I believe that one of the many good elements (simplest principles) about Democracy is when the government really listens; giving the citizens of its country the right/chance to speak and be heard. And that is what we call, constitutionally, true Freedom.
I think Pres. Arroyo should let the people, without any undue burden, celebrate and have their anniversary commemorations of the "People Power" that resulted to Marcos' relegation some 20 years ago. And although I see very little change in stability over economy and politics since then, it's still a democratic country....
Mournfully, the people of my beloved country can't help but feel and see Arroyo's administration is somewhat parallel of one running a totalitarian state by its own, believed to be, unwarranted actions.
But like every story, there's always two sides that should both be addressed, and must find solution to, in a civil manner.
Just so you know, I'm not being biased here my fellow bloggers. The fact is, I understand the President's woes and worries, and I honestly do sympathize. If her calls for "double red alert" is valid over this alleged coup attempt against her regime, and that her opponents are just manipulating the people and the situation that can put the government in peril...then who can blame her, really? That is very serious and unfortunate, that I think a lot of people can relate to. I just hope that this passes very quickly and peacefully. and I PRAY that this does not lead to Martial law. Now, that will be very unjust to everyone...and it'll definitely prove gravely unfavorable for her.
A fine line between love and hate.
If you ask me, I really wouldn't want to be in her shoes--in her position--your subjects and/or the community will either LOVE you (it may very well be only "artificial" or if not, sometimes, this is easily persuaded into antipathy,) or really HATE you to begin with, until the end. Specially after that cheating this last election that supposedly Mrs. President took part of, it completely made things worse. In fact, I'm more inclined to believe it (and the allegation about her husband and son's involvement in Jueteng [illegal gambling activity] a couple of years back) is (are) what made people (more) outraged...ergo prompted this whole new crisis.
I just think it's really sad for the country I love and so admire...seeing how unstable it is and for many many years now, that is. But still, I can't stop hoping and praying for a better change. Someday, I hope, things will be the way they should....
To all my friends, I'll be praying for peace and joy for all of us--Yes, you'll all be included in my prayers tonight!--God bless!!! Posted By: Heart Speaks Online  |